I Will Not

I will not beg for your love,
Or call for your attention.
I will not hold on to useless memories
Of what we used to be
Or what we could have been.
I will not ever wish to have you
By my side ever again
And I will let go of all this harmful pain.
I will not keep these feelings alive
These dumb feeling I had to hide.
I will not suffer because I will stop
Wishing and hoping for what will not happen.
So I will not sit around and wonder
I will no longer bore God with questions
About why we are not together
Or why you are going to be a father.
I will not look for you
And if you ever look for me,
I will not be waiting.
I will not love you, want you, or miss you.
I thought about things and
Today I feel so much better.