Why Me

All I wanted was something real now it’s dreamlike.
I was falling for you. Now I’m hurt just for hearing what you are,
what you created as your shadow. Its affection has destroyed my imagination.
Everything I thought to be a bad dream its reality. I don’t know why, neither how it happened, but I need to get you out from my self. I need to stop the inevitable.
“Every thing happens for a reason” that’s what you showed me. And I thank you for
that, but now I have to leave. I don’t know how to let go something I never had, how to
sacrifice what I feel for you. WHY? WHY? Why I have to suffer? What I have to learn from this mistake that I have taken for second time? I desired something different, something like me but at the same time diverse, a woman disposed to understand me, but at the same time teach me. I need to learn, I want to learn, but if suffer is the way then let me suffer until I recognize everything I need.
My heart, my heart isn’t aware of the sorrow I’ll be breathing having you around, my conscience is aware and knows that I’ll be injured in this battle relating us. What can I do? … I need help. I need to take you out of were you are digging, MY HEART. There is no more space for mistakes when it comes to risks. So it’s better now than never.
You knew I’ll hurt you, but you stayed, I’m sorry, I can’t let you go. But I have to; I have to let you go. I can’t do this any more.